brand new day

It's Friday folks and its a brand new day!!!! woke up a litlle early couldn't sleep anymore! This kinda sucks because now I feel kinda icky ! I hope that passes because it makes for a really long day !! Today I think I shall continue to go through...

what to do next?

Well now that I have posted a couple thoughts out here and I must admitt they were kinda sad lol So now I shall post happy thoughts from this point on ! At least I will try !! In all honesty I don't know what the heck to write on here all I can think...

just another day

Just another day!!! sitting here thinking that my life must be over and, thoughts came over me that I didnt expect to have happen! I realized that no matter how hard I fall I will be able to pick myself back up and start over again!! No matter what is...

why

Why does it seem that when ever you get what you want out of life it all seems to fall apart? I have been sitting here trying to figure it all and really I am sure there is no answer to this question but it does help to ask the advice from people who...

thinking

As I lay here with so much time to think maybe thats my problem, maybe I wish for things that are impossible to have? Why is my heart playing games with my mind? What do I really want ? I don;t know anymore. I like the way you make me...

many things

Sitting here on a Monday after noon looking outside and noticing that it is very gloomy out and possibly may rain. I feel a small comfort as I do this because I am lost in some of my fave memories and I smile as I see his face and remember his words...

continue my friday night

Well this night seems to be getting more exciting, yeah right! Well they are setting off fireworks here in my town and I can hear them so that is something! Its chilly outside but that's because fall is coming. Got to love fall I think I already said...

another friday night

Another friday night coming on here to write about what ever. I don't know why I am home tonight but nothing seems to be going on so I am home doing nothing. Tomorrow I have stuff to do and sunday but tonight I am just sitting here writing about what...

interview day

Today was interview day and I guess it went okay. They told me that I would find out soon either way in the next week or so. I don't know if that is a good thing or not but I guess all I can do is sit here and wait to find out what will happen next. In...

wish me good luck

Tomorrow morning is my interview for my first job in my field of work that I chose after all these years. I am very excited and nervous at the same time so I hope that it goes okay. I cant believe its finally here. The silly thing is that I am more...

so happy!!!

Finally something good to write about !!!!!!! I finally got my first job interview that I have been waiting for since I graduated in June from college!!!! I am so happy that I may have the chance to work in something I went to school for. Its funny...

another night of trying to sleep

Its Friday night and didn't really have plans to do anything. Now its getting late and still wide awake. I don't mind to much because after all it is Friday but for once I would like to feel tired so that I could just go to sleep. I hate coming on here...

what to do next

Well two days in a row I was able to sleep with out waking up , now I didn't say how late I went to sleep lol. So put out more resumes and no luck yet, a friend of mine has been offered jobs like crazy and her resume looked exactly like mine. I don't...

hope to sleep

It is 10pm and I was hoping that tonight would be the night that I can finally go to sleep but I don't see that happening and its driving me crazy. I was able to start cleaning my spare room today but did not get done what I had planned so I hope...

get it together

Need to figure out a way to get it together?  I don't feel sad so that is a good thing but I don't feel great either. I am struggling to find my way and to make the best of what I have and not look back at what I did have or could of had in life. I...

a new day

Have not been on here in a while so I thought I would come on and write something at least. No news on the job front so that kinda sucks but I don't feel as bad about it now so that is a good thing. I realize it will happen when it wants to. Still...

feeling better

For the first time in weeks I actually felt like myself again!!! I got all kinds of things done around the house today and finally took a deep breath and realized that things are not going to be as hard as I thought they were going to be. I just have...

waiting

waiting for the right time to wake up from this long sleep that I have had inside my own thoughts. I hope that when I do wake up things will feel normal again or at least close to it. It's like someone has shut the lights out and there is nothing I can...

I have been here before

How does it happen that your life gets to be better and you feel happy and nothing seems to go wrong and then you find yourself sitting on your couch and everything you thought was good seems to be lost? I was stuck in this place last year and got out...

different

Feeling lost is something I can't stand feeling. I am usually a person who likes to stay in control but sometimes it just does not work out for me. My days have been empty with out meaning and its actually quite sad because  I thought I had allot going...

Tuesday

Today has been okay so far, trying to get things done around the house and not stressing on what I don't have but focusing on the good things that I do have surrounding me. I let my thoughts get in the way and I am not quite sure how I let that happen...

almost done

Well my weekend is coming to an end and no workout on the weekend again, no big deal. Friday saw and old friend for his bday that was alright had a great time. Sat went to a friends family reunion and that was very interesting but it was nice to be out...

day 5

Well my day started out kinda early and I started it off with a 10 min work out. yesterday I didnt do much at all I was sore from all the work out. my weight keeps bouncing back and forth I can't wait until it just starts to go and then it will make it...

tuesday

Well its Tuesday and wow I have already put 29 min of exercise in today, sweating my butt off I hope it works because I plan to keep it up and just maybe I will start to look and feel great. I just found out today that my bridesmaid dress came into...

monday

Well today I did what I set out to do and that was to work out!! I feel okay and plan on going back to it a little later today. I just need the help on staying on track . I want this to work out so that I will be able to get some of this useless weight...