thinking

As I lay here with so much time to think maybe thats my problem, maybe I wish for things that are impossible to have? Why is my heart playing games with my mind? What do I really want ? I don;t know anymore. I like the way you make me...

many things

Sitting here on a Monday after noon looking outside and noticing that it is very gloomy out and possibly may rain. I feel a small comfort as I do this because I am lost in some of my fave memories and I smile as I see his face and remember his words...

continue my friday night

Well this night seems to be getting more exciting, yeah right! Well they are setting off fireworks here in my town and I can hear them so that is something! Its chilly outside but that's because fall is coming. Got to love fall I think I already said...

another friday night

Another friday night coming on here to write about what ever. I don't know why I am home tonight but nothing seems to be going on so I am home doing nothing. Tomorrow I have stuff to do and sunday but tonight I am just sitting here writing about what...

interview day

Today was interview day and I guess it went okay. They told me that I would find out soon either way in the next week or so. I don't know if that is a good thing or not but I guess all I can do is sit here and wait to find out what will happen next. In...

wish me good luck

Tomorrow morning is my interview for my first job in my field of work that I chose after all these years. I am very excited and nervous at the same time so I hope that it goes okay. I cant believe its finally here. The silly thing is that I am more...

so happy!!!

Finally something good to write about !!!!!!! I finally got my first job interview that I have been waiting for since I graduated in June from college!!!! I am so happy that I may have the chance to work in something I went to school for. Its funny...

another night of trying to sleep

Its Friday night and didn't really have plans to do anything. Now its getting late and still wide awake. I don't mind to much because after all it is Friday but for once I would like to feel tired so that I could just go to sleep. I hate coming on here...

what to do next

Well two days in a row I was able to sleep with out waking up , now I didn't say how late I went to sleep lol. So put out more resumes and no luck yet, a friend of mine has been offered jobs like crazy and her resume looked exactly like mine. I don't...

hope to sleep

It is 10pm and I was hoping that tonight would be the night that I can finally go to sleep but I don't see that happening and its driving me crazy. I was able to start cleaning my spare room today but did not get done what I had planned so I hope...

get it together

Need to figure out a way to get it together?  I don't feel sad so that is a good thing but I don't feel great either. I am struggling to find my way and to make the best of what I have and not look back at what I did have or could of had in life. I...

a new day

Have not been on here in a while so I thought I would come on and write something at least. No news on the job front so that kinda sucks but I don't feel as bad about it now so that is a good thing. I realize it will happen when it wants to. Still...

feeling better

For the first time in weeks I actually felt like myself again!!! I got all kinds of things done around the house today and finally took a deep breath and realized that things are not going to be as hard as I thought they were going to be. I just have...

waiting

waiting for the right time to wake up from this long sleep that I have had inside my own thoughts. I hope that when I do wake up things will feel normal again or at least close to it. It's like someone has shut the lights out and there is nothing I can...

I have been here before

How does it happen that your life gets to be better and you feel happy and nothing seems to go wrong and then you find yourself sitting on your couch and everything you thought was good seems to be lost? I was stuck in this place last year and got out...

different

Feeling lost is something I can't stand feeling. I am usually a person who likes to stay in control but sometimes it just does not work out for me. My days have been empty with out meaning and its actually quite sad because  I thought I had allot going...

Tuesday

Today has been okay so far, trying to get things done around the house and not stressing on what I don't have but focusing on the good things that I do have surrounding me. I let my thoughts get in the way and I am not quite sure how I let that happen...

almost done

Well my weekend is coming to an end and no workout on the weekend again, no big deal. Friday saw and old friend for his bday that was alright had a great time. Sat went to a friends family reunion and that was very interesting but it was nice to be out...

day 5

Well my day started out kinda early and I started it off with a 10 min work out. yesterday I didnt do much at all I was sore from all the work out. my weight keeps bouncing back and forth I can't wait until it just starts to go and then it will make it...

tuesday

Well its Tuesday and wow I have already put 29 min of exercise in today, sweating my butt off I hope it works because I plan to keep it up and just maybe I will start to look and feel great. I just found out today that my bridesmaid dress came into...

monday

Well today I did what I set out to do and that was to work out!! I feel okay and plan on going back to it a little later today. I just need the help on staying on track . I want this to work out so that I will be able to get some of this useless weight...

day 3 turned into day 4

Well day three was kinda uneventful because I was way to sore to try anything. so instead I had a very nice night out instead. Had dinner and went to a friends house for a while. I think I am more of a work out during the week kind of girl because the...

another heartbreak

Why do we as humans have the need to get into situations that you know are just wrong or you deffinitly know that it will never work out? It starts out great and you cant wait to get back to it every time you are away from it. Then something goes wrong...

fallow up to my other posts today

So good news to tell , I actually found stuff to do today!! I was able to get my house all clean and some laundry done, didn't get my spare room done like I wanted but I did something better. Today is day one of my weight loss challenge!!! I started my...

my day

So my day started at 6am when I iwoke up wide awake that is!! I decided that today was not going to be like the days I had already this week. I am going to be productive so at 7am I turned on my fave music and started to clean my kitchen next will be...