another night of trying to sleep

Its Friday night and didn't really have plans to do anything. Now its getting late and still wide awake. I don't mind to much because after all it is Friday but for once I would like to feel tired so that I could just go to sleep. I hate coming on here...

what to do next

Well two days in a row I was able to sleep with out waking up , now I didn't say how late I went to sleep lol. So put out more resumes and no luck yet, a friend of mine has been offered jobs like crazy and her resume looked exactly like mine. I don't...

hope to sleep

It is 10pm and I was hoping that tonight would be the night that I can finally go to sleep but I don't see that happening and its driving me crazy. I was able to start cleaning my spare room today but did not get done what I had planned so I hope...

get it together

Need to figure out a way to get it together?  I don't feel sad so that is a good thing but I don't feel great either. I am struggling to find my way and to make the best of what I have and not look back at what I did have or could of had in life. I...

a new day

Have not been on here in a while so I thought I would come on and write something at least. No news on the job front so that kinda sucks but I don't feel as bad about it now so that is a good thing. I realize it will happen when it wants to. Still...

feeling better

For the first time in weeks I actually felt like myself again!!! I got all kinds of things done around the house today and finally took a deep breath and realized that things are not going to be as hard as I thought they were going to be. I just have...

waiting

waiting for the right time to wake up from this long sleep that I have had inside my own thoughts. I hope that when I do wake up things will feel normal again or at least close to it. It's like someone has shut the lights out and there is nothing I can...

I have been here before

How does it happen that your life gets to be better and you feel happy and nothing seems to go wrong and then you find yourself sitting on your couch and everything you thought was good seems to be lost? I was stuck in this place last year and got out...

different

Feeling lost is something I can't stand feeling. I am usually a person who likes to stay in control but sometimes it just does not work out for me. My days have been empty with out meaning and its actually quite sad because  I thought I had allot going...

Tuesday

Today has been okay so far, trying to get things done around the house and not stressing on what I don't have but focusing on the good things that I do have surrounding me. I let my thoughts get in the way and I am not quite sure how I let that happen...

almost done

Well my weekend is coming to an end and no workout on the weekend again, no big deal. Friday saw and old friend for his bday that was alright had a great time. Sat went to a friends family reunion and that was very interesting but it was nice to be out...